I have been so exited about this surgery and yesterday was the pits. I seemed very depressed and do not really know why today has been better. I am not having any second thoughts but don't know what is going on. I have 21 days, 19 hours, 49 minutes until my surgery and get so excited when I talk about it.
I have been overweight all my life and it was very hard as a child to be teased and called names. Even as an adult people still call you names and look at you with disapproving glances. But I have always tried not to judge someone until you walk a mile in their shoes. There are all kinds of addictions in life and who can really say which one is worse.
I know with this surgery will change my way of life. Sometimes I would wonder what it will be like to lose a hundred pounds because always before I could not get past eighty. Now all I can think about is getting rid of the CPAP and oxygen machine that I really do hate. So my main goal is to become healthy and be able to enjoy my life and do things that I really want to accomplish.
A journey well worth every step you take on it. I have been where you are and I can tell you just keep the goal in mind. There will be a time of depression after the surgery because loosing your ability to eat what you want and as much as you want is like loosing a family member. Go with it and allow yourself time to grieve. It helps and I am here if you need me.
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